1 Krystyna Grzywacz

Dear Krystyna,   He is indeed in a very difficult situation as he has only very few students at the moment. I know him for more than 20 years now and he managed to create a life for himself that he felt good in but now is different. It looks like he can “survive” till April but then he will have to leave somewhere. I offered him help but - as you might know - he is proud person that doesn’t want to accept help because in Hungary there is little chance that his situation will improve anytime soon.   Kind regards,   Adam

Me: 27.03.2021 Meine liebliche sexy süße kleine Muse! 🙂😘💘👄🥰💋 I received your messages on my telephones and was overjoyed! (however, these numbers will soon expire) I can’t tell you everything what is happening to me nowadays because there are so many things, some exciting, some bad but everyday something new and never boring. I sold my guitar, first because it will take me some more time to get to Greece and second because I would only have damaged it on the way. I miss you a lot but now I know it was better not to go to Poland. You have your well organized life full of obligations and probably, I wouldn’t really have fit in. I feel ashamed because on my last days in Hungary, I couldn’t talk to you because of having tears in my eyes all the time. Even now that I’m writing my heart is bleeding. I think we must wait for our next life to be together! For the future, I will try to write to you regularly because I want to stay in touch with you! You are the only one who is important in my life!   Many kisses, especially where the thigh joins your behind. (do you remember? It’s the most sensitive part.) 🙂😘💘👄🥰💋

Krystina: 27.03.2021 I read your words again and again,  and I want to kiss these words to feel you better. I am very happy knowing you are alive. Probobly you are in Germany now, means close to Poland.  It is Good news! Maybe some day I will meet you There. I think about You very often a I worry, and I miss our meetings in the morning. I am busy till 27 of May,  organizing awards ceremony. Let me dream that some day we will meet 😘

Me: 31.03.2021 Meine liebliche sexy süße kleine Muse! Imagine me caressing you everywhere and biting you tenderly! I took some 50 books with me from my cellar in Hungary, however, there are shelves with books for free everywhere, so I will always have much to read. I try to get inspiration to write new tales and stories but there are too many things happening around me. I will need a lot of time to work them out in my head. It is strange. As long as I lived in my cellar, I was a bit like locked up from the world. I lived my life without really taking notice of the world on the streets and in the houses. Now, I seem to have returned to the real life of society. People are strange. When I tell them my tales to teach them something, they seem to understand and like them, however the next moment, they continue just like before with their common lifestyle. I feel a bit like Galileo Galilei telling the people that the Earth circles around the sun. Then they look at me with astonishment and asking me how it is possible that they see the sun getting up every morning in the east and setting in the west in the evening. My ideas, for example, of the citizens controlling the state, instead of the state controlling the citizens seem too fantastic to them. I had a look at my language-blog as well, it seems to live on without me. (I’m already immortal) I’m with you every evening, like a hairy Teddy bear caressing and taking you in my arms!

Krystina: 31.03.2021 My dear Rainer, I have to ask you directly: - where do you live now? - do you have money? - are you hungry? - did you lose weight? - how do you feel, are you healthy? I worry about You. Please answer my questions. I look forward to hearing from you. 😘

Me: 06.04.2021 Meine liebliche sexy süße kleine Muse! Of course, I lost a bit of muscle weight as I can’t train with weights at the moment but I do exercises every day, especially stretching. However, my biggest problem is that I don’t have internet access all the time. The ways of life are unfathomable. I observe the situation of the people around me attentively. It’s clear that I couldn’t have stayed in my cellar for a very long time. This kind of health crisis won’t be solved. There will be a moment when people will just have enough of the quarantine and will demand to lift all restrictions. However, the state will try to cut down citizens’ rights. Of course, nobody can tell when the situation will normalize again and me, I don’t know what I will do then. (I don’t even know what I will do tomorrow. I live a bit from day to day.) Whether I enjoy it? – I would say that there were many things in my life, which were not very funny when they actually happened but many years later thinking them over and talking about them, they all sound rather ridiculous and funny. Meine liebliche sexy süße kleine Muse! Don’t worry about me too much! Instead, be happy that I sometimes manage to write to you. But you must know that I think about you all the time!

Me: 11.04.2021 Meine liebliche sexy süße kleine Muse! It’s Sunday again and many shops and institutions are closed in this Christian society. It’s a bit like in my childhood when Sundays and feast days were the most boring time in my life. On one hand, people drive a car, use a computer and talk to friends or business partners via smart phones who are often thousands of kilometres far away from them, on the other hand, a kind of god and moral, social norms, bring them back to past times from long ago. On one hand, they tell you that they are sovereign personalities, that they have their own opinions and accept no leader because they want to be democrats, on the other hand, they are limited and restricted by a being, a god, whose existence is negated by every single piece of science. Maybe, I should write a tale about a monkey who is rather scientific on one hand but superstitious on the other hand.   I know that you don’t like writing but I would really like to get an insight what your everyday life is like now or whether there are any changes, how you feel, anything concerning you.   Meine liebliche sexy süße kleine Muse! When the wind caresses your cheek and your mouth, then you know that it’s me kissing you!

Krystina: 11.04.2021 Do you remember that my second name is problem? 😀 I hope I will resolve my problems soon and i back to you. I promise 😘

Me: 13.04.2021 Meine liebliche sexy süße kleine Muse!   You have achieved many things in life. You began with a childhood full of hardship, became mother at an early age, brought up your children, continued studies, became a successful and acknowledged businesswoman, built a house. However, something seems to be missing in your life! Maybe a bit of happiness? Some years ago, I wrote: “Happiness is a comfortable way for lazy people to satisfy very simple needs.” Probably, we are not made for easy things. Our lives are full of obstacles. And if it weren’t like that, we wouldn’t have become what we are now. Do you remember some of my tales? I filled them with my life-experience. Therefore, people adore them. They are not like Hollywood’s happy end. In these tales, small animals have to fight to achieve their goals. That also is what makes us extraordinary.   Meine liebliche sexy süße kleine Muse! Big hugs and tender bites!

Me: 19.04.2021 Meine liebliche sexy süße kleine Muse!   Although the world seems to stand still around me, time passes fast. Germany is a horrible place at the weekend. One can very well work there, but living and having fun, one has to wait for holidays. That’s the reason why Germans like travelling abroad on their holidays. Nobody knows them in a foreign country and they can behave like kings. Back at home, they submit, go to the factory, kiss the feet of their superiors waiting for their next holidays. When I see German tourists, I always go to the opposite side of the street in order not to be mistaken as their companion. One can recognize them already from a far distance. They move around with the mood of superiority, a bit like the English in their colonies. It’s not the old nationalism anymore, it’s a kind of economical consciousness. It’s a bit like the way the rich behave when they get into contact with the poor.   Meine liebliche sexy süße kleine Muse! When you put your arms around your pillow, it changes into a hairy Teddy bear. That’s me coming to you every night.

Krystina: 19.04.2021 I will write in the evening (heart)

Krystina: 21.04.2021 I was vaccinated 2 days ago, and I still have fever 😔

Krystina: 23.04.2021 I feel better today and I want to wish you very nice day, Full of happiness.  I conquered my problems and I feel free 😀🥰😊

Me: 19.04.2021 Meine liebliche sexy süße kleine Muse!   I’ve just read your 3 messages and am glad that you feel better now! What kind of problem have you solved and how are you free now? What kind of vaccine did you get? Chinese? There are news about this kind of vaccine saying it is not really effective. Me personally, I still refuse to be vaccinated because this kind of medicine has still not been tested properly. I’m sure that leading politicians protect themselves by selecting the people surrounding them and not by getting vaccinated. Sometimes, I feel as light as a bird. My life is much simpler now, I don’t have to organize so many things. From time to time, it’s like being a child. One observes the people around wondering why they hurry from one place to the other pointlessly. Daily, I go for walks, in the afternoon, I do some stretching exercise. Of course, for people used to comfort, it wouldn’t be suitable. However, for myself, I don’t need much, only reading, studying, doing a bit of sports. Maybe, paradise looks like that?

Krystina: 20.04.2021 I know your opinion about vaccination but mine is different and I did it First possible day for my age.  It was astra zeneca. I want to be a test rabbit. ☺️

Krystina: 22.04.2021 Tell me please where do you live. Name of the city. And where do you sleep.  I worry about You

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